I'm neither the most patient person around nor the best in lying through my teeth.I cannot stand insincerity. If you have nothing positive to say to me, I prefer you don't say anything to me.
I believe I have a certain level of pride and independent streak that make people wary of me.
I know I have plenty of air-head moments that make people think that I'm friendly and easy-going.
I found out, through past experiences, that I make a better friend than girlfriend, a better acquaintance than a friend, a better stranger than an acquaintance.
I learnt that sometimes it's easier not to care, than to care at all.
But I realised that I have to accept myself before others are willing to accept and disregard the opinions of those who never like me to start with.
If I am too serious, I apologise, not for being too serious, but for making you think that I am more of a joker than a solemn person.
If I am too blunt, I apologise, not for telling you the truth, but for failing to find a better way to tell you the cold hard truth.
If I am too independent for your liking, I apologise, not for being self-dependent, but for trying to to fit into your mold of a helpless useless female.
If you can't stand me, I apologise, not for who I am, but for preventing you to get away from me.
For all that, I will let you go... and don't worry, I will live my own life, and you live yours. Unless you want my opinion, I will give none. Unless you want my company, I will offer none.
But when you do want either my opinion or company, please be reminded that while I am willing to accept you as a friend, I will neither be put to the corner where I have to defend my actions and choices merely because you don't see eye to eye with me nor will I be willing to sink low once more to beg for bread crumbs.
In a friendship, both give and both take. Both state their expectations and both have to compromise something. I can no longer give and give without anything given back in return.